I feel nauseated. I am upset and I am very, very angry. I feel betrayed by the majority of the citizens of my own country.
I think of emigrating - to some far-flung land where the conservatives don't rule with an iron fist. I think of anti-social behavior - looting and pillaging - but what would it solve? How would fleeing the country help? And where would I go? How would I get there? What would I do when I got there?
And what makes someplace else better than America? Would it be automatically better with no Bush in control? His influence is felt worldwide and dictators have sprung up in all civilizations and countries.
Mostly what I feel is disgust. I look at my fellow citizens in the post office or the grocery store and think, "What the fuck were you thinking? Why would you choose this monster to rule on your behalf? Are you stupid? Don't you see what he's already done - and what he wants to do?"
As I listened to John Kerry's concession speech and I read the e-mails from various progressive organizations I notice the vast majority of them say, "Don't give up hope. We need to unite the country. We need to work in a bipartisan manner." And I think, "The hell with that! I'm not selling out! I will not roll over and whimper."
I feel nauseated.
I am upset and I am very, very angry.
And I feel betrayed by the majority of the citizens of my own country.