D Gregory Smith

Thank You, Straight, White Women!

Filed By D Gregory Smith | November 18, 2009 3:00 PM | comments

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Tags: gay men, HIV/AIDS, Montana, mothers, rural HIV, Straight white women

In the 1980's, when AIDS transfixed and terrified the entire nation, decimated a generation of gay men and brought the concept of guilt and shame to a whole new (mostly sexual) level, something remarkable happened.

In the cities, ACT UP raised awareness of our anger and sadness, gay men's advocacy groups sprang from pain and suffering and LGBT social service agencies were born out of frustration and feelings of helplessness in the face of open discrimination by established services. Our lesbian sisters became our mothers and nurses. Our mothers and sisters became our advocates and protectors. And those very brave souls who self-identified as positive became our pioneers.

In rural America, it was different.

In rural America, being gay was/is not so well supported and buttressed by community and numbers. In rural America, LGBT people were and mostly continue to be the subject of jokes, derision and violence.

It has always been a fine line to walk, that place between integrity and safety. In rural America, the stigma of HIV drove most gay men and even some women deeper and deeper into the closet. Fear and concern for their safety kept ACT UP at a distance, a Bozeman Gay Men's Health Crisis a laughable impossibility.

But some people stepped up.

In Montana, it was our mothers and sisters and friends. These were mostly, with a few amazing and notable exceptions, straight, white women who were not a threat to anyone's faith or social structure.

They stepped into the gap where compassion should have been and created organizations that doled it out. They cajoled governments and churches and people in power to allocate money and space and time. They quilted and baked and visited hospitals and went to funerals and spoke at Rotary clubs. Their faces were the familiar faces of compassion and reason in the increasing climate of fear that gripped us here (and I suspect much of rural America) - and it was none too soon.

I remember the fear. I also remember the love and the dedication of these women that inspired me to overcome my fear as a closeted gay priest and sponsor the World AIDS Day Prayer Vigil at the Cathedral in Helena. I also became (somewhat) of an activist - limited by my fear and my priesthood. I suspect it was a completely familiar feeling to many gay men growing up in the wilds of Montana, the prairies of the Dakotas or the backwoods of Idaho and Wyoming at the time.

Those feelings that kept me and others like me in the shadows still linger, but more importantly, they are less powerful because of the dedication, perseverance, stubbornness and downright balls of these women.

So: Straight, White Women - Thank You. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

There's just one problem: you might have done your job too well.

To this day in Montana (and I suspect it's true in other places as well), most gay men's health organizations, HIV testing sites, and state-governed departments that have a direct impact on our lives are not led or even staffed by gay men- and gay men remain the most severely saturated population with HIV here.


Maybe because we didn't have to.

So dear women, I'm going to go out on a limb here and say gay men need your help one more time. We need you to help us get back in the saddle, because it's high time we quit hiding and start taking control of our issues instead of complaining about them. It's time to face discrimination and homophobia instead of hiding behind your apron strings. I think we can do it because you've bravely shown us how. But now, it may be time to start getting out of the way.

I don't mean to imply that we don't need you. We do. Please continue to be our teachers and mentors and cheerleaders and supporters as well as being our mothers. We especially need good mothers.

Because a good mother teaches her children to tell the truth, to make a bed, to share, to use good manners, to survive a fight, to love, to learn, to thrive. In short, a good mother not only teaches her children to leave her and make the world their own, she knows when her kid needs a swift kick in the ass- and gives it to him.

And I'm thinkin' that's just what we need....

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Gregory Hinton Gregory Hinton | November 18, 2009 3:36 PM

As a Montana born, gay man with HIV, who had the support of a good mother from the moment of my diagnosis, I could not agree with you more. Fortunately, in her place, Montana now has terrific "out" state legislators. More attention needs to be paid to the LGBT civil rights movements of Western rural communities from national organizations. The west belongs to all of us. Thank you, Mr. Smith, for your advocacy.

I can think of a few I'd like to give a swift kick. They are all straight white men.

Yes, in our HIV support center, I believe only two staffers are gay men. But the volunteers who help with office support and the fundraising are far and away primarily gay men. They step up to the plate and to the stage to make sure that donors give their most. Without our gay supporters, we could not survive.

Thank you for this, it was really touching!

Karen Barnhardt | November 18, 2009 9:24 PM

Greg--this is so eloquently written (as usual) and I understand and agree whole-heartedly with your key points. It is time for gay men to take back a the personal power that has been relegated to, and in some instances flat-out taken by, straight allies, especially women. Asking straight, white women to get out of the way is highly appropriate; however, it does create a bit of a catch 22 for those of us who are committed to doing anti-oppression work and still wish to engage in activism around issues of homophobia and the health and well-being of our gay friends and family members. It creates a situation where we are damned if we do and damned if we don't. However, I believe there is a way out of this conundrum; as you have called upon gay men to step up and accept responsibility for the most important aspects affecting their lives, I call on straight, white women to redefine their activist practices and move away from paternalism and into the realm of radical coalition building that allows gay men to empower themselves while leaving the way open for women to continue to engage in anti-oppression activism around gay and HIV+ issues. What that redefinition will look like--I'm unsure at this point, but I'm confident that an empowered and autonomous gay male community will assist in telling us when it's time to sit down, shut-up and listen to them. It's time to become a different kind of ally--one that knows when to take the backseat. Well done Greg.