Tracy Rodemeyer tackles one of the most heartrending subjects possible on Mother's Day. Her son, Jamey Rodemeyer died by suicide in September 2011 at age 14 after suffering relentless anti-gay bullying.
As my children got older, I would look forward to Mother's Day, because we made sure we spent the full day together, and I would tell the kids the stories of when they were born, or how much they changed my life forever. I could never have imagined my life without them. My life had not been complete until they entered it. They started to make me cards and gifts that I will cherish forever.
Little did I know that Sunday, May 8, 2011 would be my last Mother's Day with both my children. Half my life was taken away from me on Sept. 18, 2011. This is when my son Jamey committed suicide. I began to reexamine my life: Why am I here? Why do I exist? Do I deserve to remain on this Earth when my son is no longer with us? My children were my life, the air that I breathed, the reason for my existence. The blood that ran through me was inside both of them. This Mother's Day I will ask myself a question I ask myself every day: Do I deserve to be recognized on Mother's Day after all that has happened? This Mother's Day will be the hardest ever.
I can't imagine Tracy's pain. Since her son's death, she and her husband, Tim, have become advocates for LGBT youth. They worked with GLAAD to place other pieces on Huff Po Gay today to champion LGBT kids and their mothers. Be sure to check out other articles from Elke Kennedy (who lost her son Sean in a hate crime in South Carolina five years ago), Lillian Rivera of the Hetrick-Martin Institute and her wife Elsa Vasquez, and Jen Tyrrell (who was ousted as her son's Boy Scouts leader because she is gay).
Video of Tracy's speech last month at the GLAAD Media Awards with her husband Tim, daughter Alyssa, and Glee's Grant Gustin & Max Adler after the break.